I am feeling out of sorts, and doing the next right thing does not seem to be helping.
I went to a meeting, did my reading, tried to do the meditating thing... it is still the concept of a higher power that keeps tripping me up... and now am trying to rest so I can get up and work the two 12 hour shifts this weekend overnight.
I have been with the three year old until 4:30am last night, and now looks like I will be entertaining her until I leave for work tonight at 8pm. She is very angry with me whenever I ask for a minute to myself. They all are. It is cold and miserable here, and that is why they are all even more dependent on me to entertain them, feed them, clean up after them, and basically be ever-present to all their needs.
Warming up the potato leek soup from three nights ago. This will have to do...